Hey folks! Hope you are all doing well! I’d like to take a quick second to thank all the people in my life for the wonderful birthday wishes! I had a great day, thanks to all of you! <3
Anyways, I come to you today with another wonderful guest post! Do ya remember my post about being nominated for the Sunshine Blogger Award? Well, I’ve been lucky enough to have the talented Jackie Sagdiyev write a guest post for Zoey valuated! You should definitely go check out her very inspiring posts at On the Other Side of Depression. She shares amazing stories about her experiences with depression. Couldn’t not ask her for a guest post!
Without further adieu, here she is!
‘Darkness cannot drive out darkness, only light can do that.’
–> Dr. Martin Luther king Jr
Before I was struck with this dark cloud called depression. I couldn’t really put my finger on what was wrong with me. I did everything the same, just differently. My old happy self couldn’t find its way out of me. I had clutter in my mind, and chaos that surrounded me.
My bedroom, used to be messy, all the time. I had a bunk bed, with 2 mattresses, on top of that all my clothes. I used it as my wardrobe. My room was painted blue, I had hundreds of shoes scattered around the room. Dark and dingy blue carpet, with hard old permanent stains. I never used to open my curtains. I had a creative block and couldn’t anchor myself to write. I sat in a dark room, day by day. And immersed myself even deeper into depression. But now i can smile in the fact that depression is now one of my lifelong lessons.
One day, I decided to switch the light on and open the curtain. I noticed a different tone to my room. I knew it was time for me to rise from depression.
I realized I am the only person, who can be in charge of my brightness. I am the only person who can send the darkness away. But wallowing in darkness during the day, doesn’t make life any brighter. The action of making things bright, brought ease to my nights.
I had started by painting my walls white. And changed my curtain to a light grey. I was able to breathe better, and be woken by the blinding light escaping into the curtain, screaming at my eyes to open. The sunlight resting between four white walls, helping me feel alive. I dismantled the bunk bed, and replaced it with a normal double bed. So i wasn’t hidden in this cove that i created. I was exposed to the wild lights that joined me throughout my days, and rested me with me at night. I cleared up my room, got a shelf for all my shoes. Grey wooden flooring with a slight tinge of brown. Now i can hear the echo of every sound, that i make as i drown in my protected place, where my creativity flows from just unclogging the space. What i suggest, walk into any room, and switch the light on. Take it off, and switch it on again. Understand it was you who created the mood of that room, you who set the tone of that room. Therefore it is you who sets the tone of your life. What is important is the action of bringing things to life, turning darkness to light. You are in charge of your brightness, your happiness… your life.
Thanks for reading, guys! Hope you all enjoyed a little break from yours truly 🙂